It all Begins with ..

A question was brought out today for me to answer. And here goes ..

The perfect girl for me that i would always dream of, this are the criteria for me to choose one. I believe that someday i would have her with all this perfect image in her.

1. Smiling all the time.
   
2. Which Practice good hygiene.
3. Which love to Take good care of her skin.
   
4. Which Do not swear excessively.
   
5. Who don't wear a lot of jewelry.
   
6. Being her self for real.
   
7. A hardworking girl.
8. Who don't show off.
   
9. Which is not immature to think.
   
10. Who never compare her self with other girl.
    
11. Have the mentality of living a healthy lifestyle.
    
12. Which go and Work out, or at most is exercise.
    
13. Not Anti-social.
14. Which often get her beauty sleep not the one with "24/7" sleeping.
    
15. The girl who Have the right mind set.
    
16. Which don't "rule" the relationship.
    
17. Having equal yoke as me ~ in religion.
18. Which have the patient and courage.

Never the less it is never easy to have this kind of girl at this era. I pray to God that my future wife would have all this criteria, as for now, being a single ~ i shall wait and patiently wait while then pray and enjoy being single and also start finding for one .. Woo Hoo ( ~ i like to move it move it ~ ) .. - but as long i don't have to get married after i am at the age of 26, my target the max i can go is 29. Not rushing but i don't want a young kid when i am 50: need a to enjoy my old age before i die .. hehe ..

When I am down and, my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened,
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
There is no life - no life without its hunger,
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly,

I still seek for one thing in this life, where could it be ?

In Naked times, Winter cold will just freezes me
Moving on was never easy.
Past had taken it all..
Past on which i had put so much feelings on.

When will this dry tears end ?

Reflecting those was never been easy,
Saying words i could say those days are so much different now.
craving my life back again from time
shaping the way society leads me to be.

On which when would i be myself ?

Life has created me with the hard way
it was never been someone which i would look onto
A role model for me to follow.
Friends are just friends but they wont be long.
Family ? apart from being broken ..

Everyone has their own life, but where could i find mine ?

A person with talents,
A person who never calculates
A person who can be feel with ideas
A person who follows instructions
but is there somebody who appreciate them.

Not asking much but the fact of accepting one, is there any ?

I am aware other may have many problems
BIGGER than mine,
HARSH as mine,
WORSE than mine,
HURTS more than mine.

Would there be at least just someone to listen and never comment a word ?

Reflecting the life journey i went
looking the way i stare at my reflection
Who i am ?
Question after question stuck in my brains, thinking ..
AS tears run down to the edge of my chin.

I could never stop answering, it's so tiring
Am really breaking Down again in where i use to be
Alone where only GOD knows where i am lost
And tired ~ living through this spec of life.
The Edge of giving Up the years of living coz it's a tiring journey when you don't know where to go.